So there I am on my lunch break at work one recent afternoon. I’m looking on my phone and remember I haven’t tried the new app I downloaded a few days earlier. I open the app, have a play around on it and notice a really cool feature. I share this with those sitting around me but then quickly feel self conscious. Did I just geek out there? Did the plane app, with the 3D real time simulator just make me seem more geek, than chic? Most probably, but then that’s just who I am.
I have spent my teen years and even into my 20’s trying to keep my geekiness under wraps for fear of ridicule. But now I’m into my 30’s I feel like embracing my inner uncoolness and letting it be known, that I Abbie of Abbie Chic non-fame, love reading maps. I love doing jig saw puzzles. I feel a sense of peace when I’m reading a book in bed at 9pm. I pass up on alcohol on a night out (make that an annual night out) and I buy pj’s more than any other item of clothing.
I am UNCOOL.
I’ve tried to be cool and hip. But that facade often slips quite quickly and my interest in archeology programmes and dislike of Radio 1 breaks out. I don’t know how to be cool. But I do know how to be me and enjoy the random and slightly left field topics that interest me.
So if you are like me and prefer to watch Strictly to X Factor. Love QI than to I’m a Celeb and opt for as many layers as possible on a wintery night out rather than heels and dress, then welcome to my tribe!
I’m welcoming of everyone, en vogue or not, but we’ll find common ground if you like to organise your books by author, but then wonder if you should do it by colour. Or what about by genre? If this is you, please let yourself be known!
I find comfort in the topics that are not deemed adrenaline based and at a slower pace in a safe environment. Baking, shopping, watching Netflix, being crafty, reading rom com books, watching comedies are all my loves. Ah one of my havens is Hobby Craft. I can spend an afternoon browsing their many aisles of crafting goodies, filling my basket full of buttons, paper, paint, pom poms, stickers etc with the aspiration of making lot’s of pretty arts and crafts.
I remember when I was at secondary school I used to idolize boybands and would cut out any mention of the band I loved from magazines and plaster them all over my on bedroom walls. At one point my walls had been re-wallpapered with all my magazine cuttings and posters. Do teenagers still do that? Or was it a 90’s things? Either way rather then be hanging out at bus stops and parks as the ‘cool kids’ did I was in my bedroom listening to the Top 40 on the radio, singing along to all the latest pop hits with my Smash Hit’s magazine song words.
I never had the money to have access to the latest fashion trends either. My school bags used to be a £3.99 job from the local market. (Oh how I still can recall the market stall holder hollering ‘£3.99 any bag, any holdall!’).
One of the first times I meet my now husband, I was wearing a white t-shirt from the market, with two black hand prints printed on the front, with a cheap long denim skirt. On trend, I was not. It’s only since I’ve been earning my own income I’ve been able to afford a more fashionable wardrobe, but that’s not to say I’ve nailed it. Oh no, I’ll never be lusted after for my sense of style. I’m just a bit to geeky to be that!
But despite by habit’s of being more of a social recluse and love watching history programmes (which is odd as I couldn’t abide history at school), I find comfort in the topics I enjoy and that makes me happy. And as the much used saying goes ‘do more of what makes you happy’. And with 2018 looming around the corner, that’s exactly what I aim to do!
I’d love to know I’m not alone in my no so cool ways, so please leave a comment below to let me know if you are a little bit like me!
Love and hugs,